letter to my mother who abandoned me

My mom left me when I was four. I was abandoned when I was 4. In other words, most people don't LIKE, respect, or even value themselves. Theres only one thing Ive ever wanted from you and that was the love of a parent, or just a genuine embrace of love. This poem made my cry from the very beginning, this poem hit a soft spot. I thought about her every day waiting, waiting, and waiting and then some more. I should know, I am that child. And when the two clash, lots of sparks fly. 17. 364,322. Click here to subscribe! I have called you by name; you are mine. to show a real smile. I hate the simple fact that you took the easy way out. " instead of "You betrayed me because . Isnt that sad? M. aking sure it doesnt happen again becomes your sole purpose because the idea of living through that type of pain again is too much to bear. what a awesome poem. Watching what you did would bring some humanity to my pain, but you wanted to leave me with nothing. She has just now come back into my life and wants a relationship with me. The truth is I love her that's why I accept her. I wrote a letter and walked away for the final time. My mom left me when I was 3, and around the age of 12 she turned up again as if nothing ever happened. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. Isaiah 43: 1-2. She always made my dad seem like the bad guy. Sorry to hear your story. She started screaming and pointed at me saying 'she was the cause of this. This poem really touched me so bad my dad was not really there for me, at times I feel so left out don't want to talk to any one always by myself and was so sick of being me but all these poem I read fill my heart with tears I wish I could just have the guts to tell my mum how much she is love but at time she make feel so bad. Here was my mother, her authentic voice like a long ago recording telling me fragments of her story in the letters she never sent. This poem brought many emotions to me, they WILL NEVER GO AWAY but she did.. WOW! It's amazing how little is ever spoken about the effects from being abandoned by a parent can still be felt well into our adult lives and I mean truly FELT as raw as if it happened yesterday. I try to be brave, I just recently published my own book if anyone is interested. For anyone who reads my articles, I hope you find as much comfort in my words as I did writing them. Oops! You have a true talent. 572. Mom, you left me on October 4th, 2015. Your attempt to break me failed. I am a child of abandonment. time did not do. The letters were like quilt squares and I was determined to find . He made YOU for a reason. I am reading these responses in total shock - any mistakes made in life, as an adult, you own. Again, this is amazing. I'm sorry about the pain you have been through. She could go weeks without coming home and that always made me feel sad. Now my step mother isn't the nicest person you'll ever meet, she worshipped my little siblings, but hated me. Now, today, I can hold myself up because of him. My Big Fat Gypsy Wedding Ruined My Life: An Open Letter to Channel 4. God bless us. This will gave me the power to keep my sister from putting dad inpatient to die. See if one of them is from your state. Thats the closest. I lie & say I'm over it. Nicolette. People tell me I have a lot to live for but I know they are just trying to be nice because I already know the truth they try to hide so cleverly I have nothing to live for yet I go throughout every day praying something good will happen. This song will break your heart, but it has a hopeful message that comforts many listeners. My mother had 3 kids, 1 boy and 2 girls. He made me stop crying with his bad handwriting. Look up "daughters of narcissist mothers." It was hard; my siblings had their mom and my dad, and I barely knew my mom. And since then our life has been like that. It has been hardwired into who I am since I was 12 years old since the moment I watched my mom walk out the door for the last time. I'm 38 now and definitely in a better state of mind than 10 years ago. I have been there. I hated her for the way she both had and continued to make me feel. You seem like a pretty amazing kid! I should know, I am that child. My Darling Girl, When you were a baby, you were like a little elf. Right! The struggle with maintaining a relationship with her, the past pain, the feeling of being abandoned or not kept safe, abuse and so on. 1. I know there are hundreds of reasons why people leave every day and maybe some of them are justified. I woke up to my 18-month-old pulling my hair at 6:30 this morning. Now Im proving everyone wrong and having a 3.8 GPA and loving life. KSN Reporter. Behind your shadow, I have no contact with them. It doesnt let your mind wander or drift off to all of the homework you have or all of the bills you have to pay. You're very brave, Adam, but the thing is try not to be like your parents. They had a good relationship and were happy, but then my mom became pregnant with me. To My Ex-Husband's New Girlfriend: I'm Sorry . If she hadn't been born I wouldn't be stuck in this chair. This poem on this site is very helpful to people who have experienced maternal abandonment. Because years later, I dont understand it. We both like hiking and photography, so we would spend time together doing those activities. 2. My dad came 8 hours to just pick me up to have a better life. Within seconds, the audience is hooked at rapt attention. These professionals are experts on aging who know how to assess an elder's needs and ensure they're met. As the drum roll reaches its climax, the camera cuts from black to a shot from the back of an ill-lit hallway. Youre gone, immersed in Director Damien Chazelles fictional world. Both of my parents are in jail. The . You spend your whole life trying to replace what you lost. You could've stayed, Just about done school got so many plans for life, for my son's life. At the time I thought their body's were just changing being nine I thought that was normal I didn't know that drugs affected you like that. Email glorie@theodysseyonline.com to get started! My son Dan* and I had a typical mother-son relationship. What it came down to was the fact that I just couldn't put any of it behind me. Beautiful, but yet so sad. I am the eldest of 3. Now, living in Blacksburg, we have plenty of cold winter days even when it isnt winter any more. Do you know why I remember every detail of that day? 4. I could build a snowman or something. No. Once you hurt your kids, She had 10 children but my child was the only one she had seen born. Y ou might be my mom. All I wanted was to please them and please my mum and make her happy. My parents also had me when they were still in school. I just think I might. But as I grew up I realized that I should accept what happen and I believe that God is doing this because he know very well that I am strong and can handle this things. And it hurts. Should I do it or should I not. Had I stayed with my biological mother, I wouldn't have as many options for life as I do now. All of my friends have amazing caring mums. September 2012 #1. Published: Jan. 24, 2023 at 2:55 PM PST. My mother had a brain injury six weeks after I was born. When I was first diagnosed I told my . I'm not that brave I'm so scared I need my love ones beside me after a year my mom contact me at facebook God really knows what is best for us he knows when is the time that you need him. Creeping through the hallway, I peeked into the living room where I saw her, mostly undressed, burning pictures in a pot from the kitchen. Making sure it doesnt happen again becomes your sole purpose because the idea of living through that type of pain again is too much to bear. Subject: To the Father Who Abandoned Me. Thanks for your words. My mom was a headstrong, independent woman who felt like she was dying in her suburban life. And without knowing it, you nurture anger and bitterness. I'm thirty nine now and I thought I was over that. It turned out, they were both right and wrong. People who spend long nights looking up at the ceiling, reliving the moment their world crumbled around them. When I was eighteen I tried to build a relationship with my mother but I could tell she was not interested. I live with my grandmother. I've surrounded myself with the family and friends who truly love me. I wish it was healable, but I haven't found it to be either. I used to believe that we were close; I always loved being your mother. Related: Heres Why Helping Someone in Crisis Matters So Much. Any dog. [You don't help take care of me] or come check if I'm alive. Pray for your father. I completely relate to this poem. this poem really hit home with me the only difference is that my mom was still around my older brothers but when I was 8 my mom and dad got a divorce and I lived with my dad and I would go to my moms sometimes after school and one day I went there when I was 12 and had a note on the table that said "went to Florida, bye" she called a few times while she was gone and came back to KY when I was 20 and wanted to be part of my life it is hard and she is a drug addict so makes it harder. This poem touched me, thank you. Theres still healing being done. You then messed up the mess-ups. In their house 13-14 I chewed tobacco I got caught and now have quit I wish my parents could do the same thing. hides behind this smile. For any child that was abandoned I have been told that my book has helped them heal. They have given me a better life. I read most of stories, then I cried and I could not stop. You may also find a new normal. I now live with my dad and have been for the last 5 years. I was broken when she left, as she was a very attentive mother. He left his kids and his wife to be with my mother. I'm grown with a family of my own now, and I now have a relationship with my mother who is out of prison. My mom left me and my sister and brother when I was nine after years of cheating on my dad. I think that's the issue I'm having, I'm not sure what I want- a part of me wants to tell him to go to hell but another part understands that it's almost been 30 years and I highly doubt he's the same person he was married to my mother and there is also a morbid sense of curiosity. My sister and my mother lived together bouncing all over NYC in lower east side apartments. I called my mom to ask if he can go live there in Florida with her and of course she said yes. Then I began to see more clearly. But this women triggered some emotional wounds that I had put away in the closet as a child. I had three older siblings. She likes to be in charge and loves to boss me around. So, he left. As I now know what it feels to a parent, I would go to the ends of the earth for them and I love the so much I could self combust!! Start slowly. Why did I decide it would be a good idea to go to school here? She almost seemed relieved to be rid of me. STOP! I was raised in foster care, where I was passed around and abused. I was unable to care for them, I had no job and no High School Diploma. Do you think that I can already stand on my own? So thank you to whoever wrote it, and Mom, if you're reading this, I do love you. You cracked me, yes. And besides, she'd been out of my life longer than she'd been in it. Dear Erin, I'm sorry that you haven't been able to share your grief with your mother at a time when you're both reeling from this tremendous loss. I'm a work in progress. As my feelings towards my mum mature, the anger fades and I'm left with nothing. I am 15 years old the baby of 8 kids of my mom's but I have 12 other brother's and sister's from my dad! I was reminded that though people may fail you tremendously through life, He NEVER will. This was a response to 7 Valuable Lessons College Taught Me. But I have learned to be stronger than I ever thought I could. I'm glad I met this woman because otherwise I would have probably never noticed this about myself. Whiplashs first minute is what an opening scene should be. But thats OK, because I found it somewhere greater in the arms of Jesus. Losing you was the hardest thing I never chose to do. We all were split up and went to foster cares. I realize theres a huge door between us that seems like itll never be opened again. Used to think I was over her but I don't think I ever will be. No child will understand why mommy or daddy didnt love them enough to stay. have been really hard. Through more years of healing and forgiveness, Im willing to begin cracking the door open. We had a great relationship, never argued or fought. It's a tough battle, An Open Letter To The Mother Who Left. did you hear a sound? My priorities were my brothers and sister. Box 194, Freeville, NY 13068. Andrew even breaks up with his girlfriend because he says shell get in the way of his greatness. I couldnt spend the rest of my life without saying that. Abandonment Quotes. I couldnt spend the rest of my life without saying that. February 27, 2023 by archyde. I understand exactly how you feel My mom left when I was young too. Wow this is so touching, so deep and so real. Tears in my eyes, Dr. Julie Gottman (from the awesome Gottman Institute) says if your kids approach you with questions about their father, it is important to "validate" them, by answering as best as you can. Plus, you'll be compensated by HQ at $10/response for your first 10 articles. And so I stayed up, watching from the hallway, trying to figure out what I would do if she went for that gun. I have been on a quest to heal my emotional wounds for about 10 years. She would wheel past me, then suddenly turn and grab my hair and pull me to her, smashing at my face and dragging my head to the wall. Dogs just all have such different personalities, which might be what we love about them. Once trust is betrayed it is rarely restored. But instead of him leaving me, I left him. I can totally relate to this. Using heroin and all kinds of drugs during 1978 worse time of drug impact in the USA. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. I had not noticed it until that moment. "When that person is trying to have a sense of identity or is interacting with others, they are dealing with a black hole where their mother should be and a really dysfunctional model of love.". I always felt needy, like a beggar on the side of the road being passed up by rich folks. As a result, those of us who struggle with loving . I sincerely want to thank you actually. Strangers on the street begin to look like them. I have never done drugs beat my children or was abusive to them. My mom and dad were both great parents till I was about 9 years old now I'm 14 and live with my aunt and uncle. She didn't cry. I am very much thankful that my grandparents were there to love and support me. Songs About Being 17Grey's Anatomy QuotesVine Quotes4 Leaf CloverSelf Respect, 1. Ive been haunted for years. You helped dig that deep, dark hole inside of me. I took care of them. Share Your Story Here. My book is called " A Father's Love" by Ruthie Hernandez. As I got older I asked my dad about her.. she was a drunk, she is a drunk. I know this was submitted in 2007 and we're now in 2019, but I hope the writer reads this. a mama and I wouldn't give up being a mama for anything in the world! You should know that I lived. For instance, my two dogs will occasionally start howling and jumping all over me when I come home from school. They took turns trying to bully me, as I was in the way of their plans to take over daddys cabin. 23. In saying those words, in repeating them again and again, in being the mom I always wished I'd had; I've found healing. I'm glad to know there are others who can relate to me :). That little girl has become a woman of grace, strength, and true beauty. My love for dogs makes me do things like walk up to strangers on the street to pet their dog or cry uncontrollably when a dog dies in a movie. There was healing. More than anyone else, He understood me. She took good care of me until a year later when my dad finally got full custody of me. Congratulations to all the writers! Clearly, your older son and his fiancee can't be counted on. I will never forgive her. Now that I'm a bit older, I recognize that I didn't always make life easy. As it turns out, the earlier in life estrangement happens, the more damaging it can be. tags: abandonment , love , lullaby , song. I found myself reliving all the pain I felt as a child, my heart was hurting like crazy. Thank you and I'm sorry you had to go through this. There was dawn rising over the horizon through it all. I am a grown woman now and I also wrote a book about it. I am praying that soon I can be back in their life. It has been hardwired into who I am since I was 12 years old since the moment I watched my mom walk out the door for the last time . The snapping pop of a snare drum begins to play, the tempo gradually intensifying. you hurt your little girl This poem was great. This poem has me crying. I was afraid that opening the door to the source of so much of my former pain might risk everything I'd worked toward. I have a son of my own now and He is my number one priority. it will soon come to regret. My mother didn't abandon me and my sister but she basically chose a man (which was my step father) over my sister and I. I haven't spoken to him in 17 yearsit's sad. I can relate to the feelings of the poem all too well. Loneliness. Thank you for unknowingly leading me to Christ. she reads the letters her mother wrote her and others and never sent . They just sit there beside you when you have had a rough day and lean over to give you a little lick on the hand just to let you know they are there. We now have a 2 year old daughter and weeks after our 10 year anniversary she walks out on us. A farewell letter to the father who abandoned me - but could Caroline Gray forgive him for 30 years of betrayal? So Mom, I want you to know that I'm working on being better than you in all areas of my life. My parents had me when they were still at school. My baby sister I don't know where she is.. me, I'm 18 now and have a 18 month old son. Published by Family Friend Poems June 2007 with permission of the author. Sarah Dessen, This Lullaby. A letter to my estranged daughter. 16. She was angry and felt abandoned by him and found it hard to understand and even harder to move forward. I hate her and I don't know if there's anything she can do to change that. She was never really caring in the first place though. you made me cry, I know what you are feeling. And now, some of you have been trying to senselessly weasel back into my life like all of that was nothing. When I was old enough to stay home on my own she was never around, always at work or partying. It made her better and more placid for a while at least. I barely talk to her ever. Thankfully she left after a few months, but I couldn't help but wonder if maybe it's not my 'mothers' maybe it's me, maybe I'm doing something wrong. My Feelings To You by Katarina Alexa Arruda - Family Friend Poems. I have visited the place where you left me, in that hedge in a beautiful straw basket with hand-knitted . Strangers on the street begin to look like them. The emotional conflicts an abandoned child feels carry into adulthood and include grief, pain, shame, anger, and more. I know there are hundreds of reasons why people leave every day and maybe some of them are justified. Help. Name Withheld 05:00, Jan 10 2017. We had a step mom that decided she wanted no part of our lives when her and my dad divorced when I was 12 years old. My younger siblings ended up in custody of our grandparents, but I lived on the streets, I was barely a teenager at the time. My 80-year-old mother lay in the hospital bed, soon to die, I . I have the most wonderful parents a person could hope for. My question is how many children does she have to loose before she stops thinking of herself sometimes I wonder does she even love us at all ? Because of the life I ran to I would go on to lose 2 children a boy, and a girl at about the same age as when I had been adopted, finally leaving an abusive lifestyle to raise my 3rd child, I met my birth mother and shared a brief reunion of 10 years with dismaying results. At least someone understands, thanks. But I can promise you that youre 92 percent of the reason there are deep, empty pits in my heart. 1. Anyone - mother, father, grandparent - who chooses anything over their children does not deserve to be in your precious lives. to myself I lie. Mom for petty theft, narcotics, and burglary. I am the opposite of everyone in my family. The world becomes a scary and unforgiving place. Now I'm 20, and I miss the feeling of having mother. When you chose a man over me your own daughter and blood. That nearly collapsed every pit in my heart that had been dug so deep over the years by you. I sincerely want to thank you actually. I didn't sleep much after that. rages in fright. Unfortunately with my reentry into your lives, it has affected Ryne, Sever, Brett, and Jenna both negatively and positively. Krystal A. Bayer, Daddy Why? At the end of the empty hallway, Andrew (Miles Teller) sits illuminated at a drum set. It was only a matter of time before I began to feel sad, depressed and angry. I don't have kids. It's about a girl whose father passed away when she was young due to tragic circumstances. I could sit and cry for what happened to me, but I decided I was going to look at the positive side and think of what my life would have been like if I was never abandoned and I thank God I don't have that life now. Tears rolled down my eyes as I read your poem from start to finish. I can honestly relate this to my dad. I said I think I hate you. I look at my children and I can not figure out how someone could not want to be a part of them.. you listen to her and she should get the Mother of the year award but we know the truth. At 41, I've never been as mentally healthy as I am today. I don't even remember my mother leaving me, but it has a lasting effect on everything I do now. I was abandoned when I needed you, my mother. You see, the funny thing is that my mother had several chances to leave him but she never would. 9. I should know, I am that child. And luckily, the rest of Whiplash is just as good as the first minute. My mother never had a rebellious period while she was growing up as a teenager. You abandoned us - you abandoned me. My brother and sister and I grew up with out are mother and fathers. My father abandoned me Why? I wish your young minds understood that even though someone tells you they love you, it doesn't mean they do - LOVE is a verb - it's an action towards someone you can't live without talking to or seeing them on a regular basis. I would actually rather say I didnt know my mother. What in the world is that supposed to mean?In time I began to realize that my hatred was doing far more damage to me that to the other person. I won't ever complain about the heat again. Were you touched by this poem? More than anyone else, He understood me. An Open Letter To The Man Who Made Me His Mistress . Here is an opportunity for you to do something good. For the longest time, I didn't expect to write a letter to you, either. you really hurt me, My mom disappeared for almost 12 years. However after years of getting no explanation/ownership or apology from her or my dad nothing has been resolved, no wonder kids grow up thinking they're worthless. I worked hard and managed to succeed. Can costs go any higher? What I can say is by the grace of god, Dad had his will revised. I really didn't care anymore what happened because they both have their different sides of the story. 12. Daughters said they s acrificed careers when their relatives wouldn't. Others said hiring help sapped finances. I will never forgive her. No, we are big hearted that they take advantage of and abuse mentally and verbally. She would visit once in a while then one day she gave up and I haven't seen her since. I talked to my birth father 1 time to have him agree to meet me, afterward changing his number to never be spoken to again. what you did to me. I still haven't fully got over it. And thats what kept and keeps me going. My mom left me and my twin brother on the doorstep of my grandmas house when we where 3 weeks old. God bless you and your brother/son in all ya'll do, and always remember you are amazing. It has been hardwired into who I am since I was 12 years old since the moment I watched my mom walk out the door for the last time. I'm supposed to be doing these things for myself, aren't I? For the rest of my life 25. There is a lot more but I don't feel like typing it out thanks for your time. The Saturday night before she left she told me "I will always love you and I promise I will never leave you" and she gave me her necklace she got from her mother before her mother died. He will ALWAYS receive us with open arms. I'm the mother who has been caring for your son the last several months after you flew him out, from Texas to California, to live with a father he had never met. A little bit of research before writing the letter would also help. She's inspired you to do the work. That you couldn't hold a candle to. They are always there for us, they love us unconditionally, and they treat us a whole lot better than most humans do. I don't even remember if you thanked me. I understand what you are going through my mom did drugs with me in the house and her friends got the drugs with me in the car. Im not quite sure how my love for dogs got started, but I dont mind it. God do you really think I can handle this? A boiling point had occurred and it became clear there was nothing healthy about my remaining in that home. There, youll also find thoughts and questions by our community. Today I am aware of all that, but it would have been easier to hear it from you. Dear Mom, I hope that one day in the future you will wake up and see all that you have lost. Unfortunately, Ill never forget that. I'm almost 17 and I still have flashbacks of that day and this poem explains my feelings so perfectly. 14. to talk about boys . I hate my mom so much that I can't even explain. I always had a feeling that my mom didn't really want me because she left me with her mother a lot of the time and I felt like I was an extra thing she had to take care of. She ultimately ended up going to prison and leaving me on my own. It was suppose to be when I was able to care for them I could get them back. 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